This is not a linear narrative. It also is, despite its truth, incomplete. Even incomplete in all the sexy details. So much is unwritten. I find myself wanting to detail some of those left behind moments. I want to continue this journey and this exploration, here.
After that desperately sad conclusion, you may have found yourself idly wondering, is that really it? Or perhaps not, perhaps my terrible story was convincingly bleak, that you were sure this blog would never be updated again.
So what comes from this incomplete accounting of what is a real life? What has happened since May is…accurately an evolution. An evolution that is positive, sexy and incredibly interesting. In some ways, life is simpler and less extravagant, in other ways more complex and stranger. I want to write about it. I also want to write about some of those unwritten tales. I have many times started writing, and then stopped. Because it seems like such a big task.
How do I reassert the narrative flow, my voice, this story? A story which will never be accurate when discussed here. Do I continue with a flourish? I could satisfy your curiosity about just how many rules there are, starting with Rule 7. Do I continue with a relationship state of the union, that explains why I have a hard time remembering what Rule 7 is these days? For the record I just looked it up and it is S-E-X-Y. Personally, I love the idea that I am telling the truth here. But, you, my audience, will never know THE TRUTH. You’ll just know a slice of it. The question of narrative honesty only matters to a point.
I don’t know exactly where to begin (again).
I will leave you with a few details. Our story is not over. We are still living a life. Together, but changed. I started that older post with this thought, “He and I never intended to have the kind of relationship that we have now.” In part, that still feels true. However, were I to write that post now, about the present, I would talk about intention. I would talk about challenges. I would talk about acceptance. I would talk about malleability.
I would also tell you some sexy sexy things.